The man in the black suit (29)
“It smelled bad,” my father said, but he didn’t look at me when he said it, and his voice sounded oddly defensive. It was the only time I ever heard him speak just that way.
“Yes, sir.”
“We’ll tell your mother we couldn’t find it. If she asks. If she doesn’t ask, we won’t tell her anything.”
“No, sir, we won’t.”
And she didn’t and we didn’t and that’s the way it was.
That day in the woods is eighty-one years gone, and for many of the
years in between I have never even thought of it . . . not awake, at
least. Like any other man or woman who ever lived, I can’t say about my dreams, not for sure. But now I’m old, and I dream awake,
it seems. My infirmities have crept up like waves which will soon take
a child’s abandoned sand castle, and my memories have also crept up, making me think of some old rhyme that went, in part, “Just leave
them alone/And they’ll come home/Wagging their tails behind them.” I remember meals I ate, games I played, girls I kissed in the school cloakroom when we played Post Office, boys I chummed with, the first drink I ever took, the first cigarette I ever smoked (corn- shuck behind Dicky Hammer’s pig-shed, and I threw up). Yet of all the memories, the one of the man in the black suit is the strongest, and glows with its own spectral, haunted light. He was real, he was the Devil, and that day I was either his errand or his luck. I feel more and more strongly that escaping him was my luck—just luck, and not
the intercession of the God I have worshipped and sung hymns to all
my life.
As I lie here in my nursing-home room, and in the ruined sand castle
that is my body, I tell myself that I need not fear the Devil—that
I have lived a good, kindly life, and I need not fear the Devil. Sometimes I remind myself that it was I, not my father, who finally
coaxed my mother back to church later on that summer. In the dark, however, these thoughts have no power to ease or comfort. In the dark comes a voice which whispers that the nine-year-old boy I was had done nothing for which he might legitimately fear the devil either . . . and yet the Devil came. And in the dark I sometimes hear
that voice drop even lower, into ranges which are inhuman. Big fish!
it whispers in tones of hushed greed, and all the truths of the moral
world fall to ruin before its hunger. Biiig fiiish!
Taken From:Stephen king everything’s eventual
